The same day Agent Cooper arrived, the new treadmill came.
I’m deeply resentful about how much better I feel with that regular walk every morning, but I guess that’s my age. I’m taking all the precautions I can to ensure it lasts longer than two years this time, but who knows.
This may or may not lead to more regular blogging, since I have to do something in the morning while walking and Bsky hasn’t picked up enough to occupy time like scrolling Twitter used to.
Among my physical health, I’m hoping it helps with my burnout right now.
Burnout is one of those injuries where I know I’ll make it worse if I keep pushing, but I don’t have a choice. I have commitments and bills. I can’t afford to pause Patreon, I can’t afford to take a month off of freelancing to recover. I’ve built quarterly breaks into my schedule, or at least theoretically, but I spent the last one either at the vet or in the hospital. Next is planned for September, but that’s pretty far from now when I’m staring down the barrel of everything I have to do.
Regardless, I’m pulling the trigger on Hell Fire, I think, and starting to serialize it the first Friday of every month starting Aug 1. Technically I’ll have November as a break, since the preview of AWKoD posts then, and then Dec, Jan, and Feb should complete it (give or take a month).
I’ve written books while burnt out before and they ended up okay–Odin’s Spear comes to mind, and despite some people not liking that one (always interesting to hear men complaining a story about a woman, by a woman, specifically about a woman feeling held to the whims of others and trapped, as not having sufficient enough “agency” for their male liking) I feel like it turned out well. It did require heavy revision, though.
Hell Fire will probably have to be heavily rewritten later, but I’ve never denied they’re zero drafts when they post. Witch Hunt was in pretty rough shape too. I’m just hoping this one isn’t as bad as I’m afraid it is (how’s that for a selling point–sign up for Patreon! lol).
To that end, I’ve got a sale up not only for Blood Ties (Elis #1) but also the Demons of Oblivion boxset over at Payhip. Hell Fire is about Elis and her budding misandrist girl gang heading into Oblivion, so it’s probably a good idea to read the OG series though not necessary.
Both are 50% off with the coupon code HELLFIRE
Good until September 1.
*checks watch* I’m at 4200 steps so far. I’ll get another thousand or so in and call it good until this afternoon.
Dr’s appointment next week, which I’ve been really nervous about–like anxiety through the roof, I had to take one of the few benzos I had left. If I have to switch to an extremely expensive medication, it’s going to create a huge headache with some other things (not going into detail). Talked it over with a friend, though, who made it seem that much more manageable. It’ll still be a pain in the ass, but at least I’ll have a place to start, so while I’m not exactly calm, I’m no longer chewing the inside of my mouth bloody.
Tuesday I needed bloodwork done ahead of the visit and I came out looking like this (technically this is yesterday, but yeah, it’s bad).
I didn’t realize until I was sitting in the chair that the girl was a trainee and I had no idea what she was doing. I have tricky veins but I used to get weekly blood draws at one point due to my medication, so I know where the good veins are. This was, hands down, the worst blood draw I’ve ever had, and consider for a moment they were so bad when I was a kid that I was traumatized and went almost twenty years without bloodwork again.
It hurts less than it did Tuesday (my entire forearm ached all day afterward) but yeah, she clearly blew the vein. And yes, I’m putting arnica cream on it. That’s still what it looks like.
So that’s what’s new here.
At least I have Agent Cooper Barbie.