Why is everything terrible?
Why???
Time is arbitrary so it was silly to assume “April’s over, it’s gotta improve now, right?” No, no, it’s still terrible. (For everyone, basically, not just me–like all of my friends and their families are having nonstop terrible stuff happen too.)
I just about lost it (okay, I did lose it) yesterday morning when I discovered the “work” (aka Photoshop/graphics) laptop on its last legs, atop the other stuff I’m dealing with right now. Upon the advice and encouragement of friends, I literally just made this page for the cats over the weekend that I’ve linked to on a few relevant spots and can always post when things are bad (I mean, it’s already bad, but you know what I mean). And now…how about a dead laptop when you can’t buy another and also need to work???
Anyway, I am lucky. I have friends. One is sending her old one as a stopgap until I can figure out how to approach getting a new one. I just have found I am not handling new stress well right now, normally I’d get annoyed and spin out a little but immediately start coming up with a solution. Now, I’m basically bursting into tears every time something else comes up. (I am also dealing with a “calculation error” to the tune of $700, not in my favour, I am trying to get help with tax-wise, so I’m a little raw at the moment–and also with the aforementioned worry about not being able to provide for the cats anymore.)
If I’m posting Barbie gifs, I promise I’m still okay; mostly I’m only a real worry when I completely disappear everywhere and get quiet. If I start quoting Hyperbole and a Half on Depression, I am likely not in any danger, I’m just coping because I feel like I’m screaming that my fish are all dead.
We’re now at the year-mark until the fourth Waverly Jones book releases, which means all the ebook preorder links are live. I felt like I’d been making progress on the rewrites but the way my brain seems to approach time, nothing exists outside this current moment so I’m trying not to panic that I will never end up revising it in time since it’s a struggle to do anything but burst into tears and panic right now about non-writing stuff.
But it’ll be fine! This is only temporary. It is all gonna be FINE.
If you shop outside of Kobo, that means it’s everywhere else now.
The goal now is just to make it through May unscathed (dr appointment next week, hoping all the stress hasn’t fucked up my remission). There will be a post about the Storybundle launch in a couple of weeks.
This monster had me up in the middle of the night doing crimes so I’ll finish my book here and then try to go to bed early. If you’re not waiting on a hardcover, give Waverly a preorder!
Writer of urban fantasy, thrillers/mysteries, and horror.
Holla!