Soundtrack Sunday – “Breathe (2AM)”

We’re just over a week until the release of The Killing Beach. It’s only taken…well, almost six years since the first vague idea.

I’ve done everything I can, short of spending thousands of dollars I don’t have to advertise, to give it the best chance it can have. The reality, though, is that this is a huge upward climb and it’ll probably be years before I have any idea if these books go anywhere.

It’s hard for me to just let go, but that’s where I am–which is where Waverly Jones finds herself.

So prior to the full soundtrack going up in a couple of weeks, I give you the epilogue song from The Killing Beach.

Most of my books, I know the endings well ahead of time (often years in advance). It gives me direction while I’m writing, and even if I tweak them a little–Emperor’s Tomb was supposed to end with Livi at the funeral in Texas, until I finished the book and found all those threads I still had to bundle–it’s the glowing lighthouse I’m always reaching for.

TKB’s ending is one of the things that kept me coming back to the series again and again, no matter how many times I hit brick walls while writing it. It was crystal clear in my head and for whatever reason I heard Anna Nalick’s “Breathe (2AM)” on repeat for the scene–probably because I also heard Waverly repeating over and over, “Breathe. Just breathe.”

Waverly both starts and ends the book on the beach.

The beach that drew her home again, hoping to find the impossible.

The beach that ends up changing her whole world.

But you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now

“Breathe” is a song about not being able to go back in time, and I think that’s why it stuck out to my subconscious. An ongoing theme of the series is that loss of time, knowing that it’s moving and you’re caught by the current. That hourglass it touched on again in an important scene in the seventh book (I can’t wait to talk about “Out of Sand” for that scene and its lyrics)

So I had both the original and the acoustic version of this on repeat, alternating as I finally, finally got to write the end of this book that I’d been excited about for so long, four years after I first started it.