Soundtrack Sunday – “Rescue”

I am really looking forward to National Not Working Another Fucking Weekend Month in November. (Of course, we know me; I’ll still be working, but at least it’ll be on my own stuff.)

So. Book is out on Tuesday! Having a total normal one here where I want to delete all my books and my entire presence off the internet. As one does.

It’s a very weird psychological thing going on that I was talking to a friend about this past week (she also had a new release) where we know 90% of readers are cool. We know this not because we hear from them but because we have access to sales numbers so we know how many of them are out there.

But that other 10% are so loud. The demands, the insults, and that’s not even covering the percentage hitting my site googling where to steal my books. So our brains do this protective thing where we automatically assume absolutely everyone is going to hate the book so it hurts less when we get yelled at, which makes trying to advertise it with feigned excitement exhausting if not entirely impossible.

I’m several neuroses and a bag of feral cats in a trench coat, I know.

Anyway. Usually before a new book release I post its full Soundtrack Sunday playlist so I can link to it when I send out the new release announcements but no one ever clicks over to that, so I’ll worry about organizing it next week maybe. Today will be the last one specifically from Charon’s Gold. This time the song is “Rescue” by Lauren Daigle.

Warning: this will probably skew your YouTube recs to Christian music for a while

There’s a deeply personal scene late in the book in a chapter titled “Rescue” where I had this song on repeat–you’ll know it when you see it.

You are not hidden
There’s never been a moment
You were forgotten
You are not hopeless
Though you have been broken
Your innocence stolen

There’s this kind of amusing complaint in the readership who thought Solomon’s Seal was light popcorn fun and I guess didn’t get some of the undercurrents that were building up to get us to where we are now. (Which is cool! Not everything is for everyone, and there’s lots I could’ve done differently.) But you can’t have an adrenaline junkie character and not get to the root of where that comes from (or, at least, I can’t).

Yampellec’s Idol started really breaking down some of those coping mechanisms when Livi literally couldn’t run anymore, and Charon’s Gold is about getting right to the root of things and laying them bare.

I hear the whisper underneath your breath
I hear you whisper, you have nothing left

So while the book is about Livi rescuing someone else, it’s also about her rescuing herself. That’s the only real way out of hell.

There’s not a lot else I can say about it without spoiling everything, but some of you will get it and I hope that it helps you in some way.

And that, maybe, Livi will rescue you too, even if only for a minute.

I will send out an army to find you
In the middle of the darkest night
It’s true, I will rescue you
I will never stop marching to reach you
In the middle of the hardest fight
It’s true, I will rescue you

Charon’s Gold is available on Tuesday.

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The complete list of Soundtrack Sunday posts are here.